Sometimes I want to ask why

Although I know there's no answer to many or most things in life... but

Why didn't I spend more time with my dad when he was healthy?

Why didn't my boss like me?

Why was she angry with me when we've spent so much time together already?

Why doesn't he love me?

Why did he say he loved me then ignored me?

Why won't they reply to my emails?

Why did she say she wanted to be back in touch then totally disappeared the other day until now?

Why is everybody married and I am not?

Why is my mom so happy all the time?

Why did my dad have to be sick and die of such a horrible disease?

Why did that happen to me when I was young?

Why are people so unfriendly and not say hi back?

Why did she think I'm no good at all?

Why is it that nothing seems to work no matter how much I try?

Why is there always a gap between our dream and the reality?

Why am I feeling alright when everything turns out badly?

Why am I feeling not alright when everything is fine?

Why can't I tell you how I really feel?

Why do I miss you still?

Things that make me happy

A good friend of mine told me she once made a list of the things that makes her happy. So here is mine:

1. Watching a good meaningful movie

2. Dining and drinking with good friends

3. Sleeping in my own bed knowing I don't have to wake up early the next morning

4. Writing journals in a coffee shop somewhere in Japan

5. Swimming in a nice big pool in Bali in the dark night all by myself

6. Talking to someone I love on the phone

7. Reading a good book that makes me laugh or think

8. Cooking for someone I love and for good friends

9. Making coffee on a quiet Sunday morning

10. Listening to Ken Hiari or any good music

11. Travelling - the moment of landing in a destination and walking around a foreign city

12. Knowing that someone I care about thinks about me

l3. Moving to a new flat

14. Interviewing an interesting person and seeing my article being published

15. Teaching and interacting with my students

16. Walking in a garden full of flowers and trees

17. A nice massage by nice hands

18. Writing letters on beautiful papers

19. Visiting the Van Gogh museum or the Tate Museum

20. Being in Bali or Japan

21. Giving a good presentation to a good audience

22. Learning to speak Japanese

23. Learning new things

24. Ceramic - the touch of cold clean clay

25. Practising calligraphy

26. Sake with yakitori

27. A glass of oaky dry wine, white or red

28. Watching a good creative dance performance

29. Watching a clever and funny standup comedy

30. Walking in a big clean supermarket full of fresh produce

31. Breakfast with eggs and bread

32. Visiting good friends outside HK

33. The smell of grass on a rainy day

34. Watching the sunrise

35. Watching my big sister cook in the kitchen and enjoying her food